just because her eyes don't tear
d o e s n ' t , mean her heart ; ;
doesn't cry . & just because she
comes off strong doesn't mean
there's nothing w r o n g * ' x3

she finally let go of her fake smile as the tears slowly rolled down her face as she whispered to herself "i don't wanna be me"

always hold your head up high..
pretend that nothing's wrong at all - close
your eyes before you fall. if you can't see it.
it's not there..

nothing.
nothing is wrong.
&& asking is against the rules.
crying is against the rules.
you're strong.
don’t let them break you.

Don`t use excuses.. don`t ask why
it`s just a breakdown.. happens all the time..
so get out of my face - don`t even try..
you wanna help me? .. just let me cry

Have you ever just sat there & thought..
why?..
why did God put me here?
why do people hate?
why my life turned out this way?
why do people want to kill themselves?
why do i want to kill myself?
why my life is falling apart?
why do people love you & then hate you?
why you care so much about what other people think?
why did I turn out the way i did?

start to breathe and fake a smile.. it's all the same after awhile.

She smiles with all she has left
yet her tears are left undried,
though she has so much to say
she bottles it up inside.
If you look past her broken eyes
to a shadow no one sees,
a disguise so you won’t recognize
that girl is really me.

silence is a girls loudest cry

 

she sits in the corner
singing herself to sleep
wrapped around in promises
that no one seems to keep

walking down the hall with her head held high, every hair is in place.
she sees a friend and waves. wearing a smile on her perfect face friendly, smart, beautiful. everyone adores this girl.. seemingly content head in a while and inside she's unhappy and she doesn’t know why she lays in bad at night and cries she doesn’t know what causes the tears how could this princess have insecurities and fears she has it all. a pretty smile, many friends, a great guy, the newest trends her family has money and she gets good grades. has her own car and ..her make up never fades. always looking happy every single day. but inside she's feeling a different way this wonder girl. she's everyone’s dream but things aren't always what they seem

I’m a daughter hiding my depression
I’m a big sister making a good impression
I’m your friend acting like I’m fine
I’m a teenager pushing her tears aside
I’m the girl sitting next to you
I’m the one asking you to care
I’m your best friend hoping that you'll be there

she's deeper than you think.
she has secrets too

Do you ever get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody? You don't want to smile and you don't want to fake being happy. But at the same time you don't know exactly what's wrong either. There isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being along never was. At least when you're alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn't anyone who won't take 'I don't know' for an answer. You feel the way you do just because. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait.

even sleeping beauty has nightmares

It hurts to look at yourself in the mirror and hate yourself, look into the mirror and wonder what ever happened to that smile that used to shine so bright. When you look at yourself, you see this version of "you" that your mind has created, someone that has become so distant and cold that nobody wants to be around her. Empty eyes. Fragile bones. The only thing you have left are the lies you tell yourself everyday to survive, lies that have become your painful reality, lies that will swallow you whole and crush your insides, lies that have turned you into someone you never wanted to be...”

yeah, I’m okay in an everything's
screwed up kinda way.

 

My dreams tell me secrets
My mind tells me lies
My heart screams for help
My eyes only cry

Her tongue has bite marks from all the things she didn’t say

If you’ve ever wished on a star, then you know what its like to be wanting something you can’t have...

she finally realized;;
[[all]] of the tears &&
lies just [weren't]
worth it anymore

she finally let go of her fake smile and
the tears slowly ;; rolled down her face
as she whispered to h e r s e l f ' *
I don't want to be me

Maybe her laughter is a cry for help
Or her precious smile is a symbol of her insecurities..

Smile. It's easier than explaining why you're sad

 

I’m the girl that holds it all in
and regrets it all later

if I added up all the times you made me feel special, and multiplied it by a thousand, it wouldn't even come close to all the times you made me feel like shit.

Keep your head up because there are people who would kill to see you fall

She always loved to help other people;;
fix their mistakes but she never seemed
to be able to fix her own.

I’m not depressed; I just hate everything.
I’m not a horrible person; I just let everyone down.
I’m not an outcast; everyone just hates me.
I’m not in love; I just constantly think of him.
I’m not a cutter; I just have to slice my wrists.
I’m not a mistake; I’m just not supposed to be here.
I’m not suicidal; I just want to die.

Walk a mile in my shoes.. You’ll fall the first step

you gotta keep your sense of humor.. .you gotta
be able to s m i l e through all the b u l l s h i t

The girl
Looks in the mirror
What she sees is not to her taste
I hate the size of my waist
My thighs are to big
My stomach is to fat
My eyes are too blue
My hair is to icky
My arms to lose
And legs to round
Feet are gigantic
And I'm too tall
She's not beautiful in her mind;
no not at all
she can't see her inner beauty;
so her self esteem is to low
she cant see how she looks to others
no she just doesn’t know

I know I’m made of mistakes, disappointments, and failures.
but I promise you that there is a part of me that is actually worth
keeping.

Your perfect little girl dropped a grade on her report card.
Your perfect little girl yelled at you last night.
Your perfect little girl talked back to you again.
Your perfect little girl painted her nails black.
Your perfect little girl lied to you all her life.
Your perfect little girl cries herself to sleep.
Your perfect little girl used to slit her wrists 'till she bled.
Your perfect little girl dated before sixteen.
Your perfect little girl was broken by a boy.
Your perfect little girl doesn't go to church.
Your perfect little girl hates you.
Your perfect little girl has given up on life.
Your perfect little girl had a tantrum today.
Your perfect little girl wants to run away.
Your perfect little girl has no real friends.
Your perfect little girl thinks she's overweight.
Your perfect little girl hasn't let you dry her tears.
Your perfect little girl disobeys you.
Your perfect little girl hates the world.
Your perfect little girl is hated by the world.
Your perfect little girl says bad things about you.
Your perfect little girl is very unhappy.
Your perfect little girl tried to commit suicide.
Your perfect little girl has become a disgrace.
Your perfect little girl....isn't so perfect anymore